Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Grogan's LiveJournal:

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Friday, June 7th, 2002
7:43 am	NEW LIVE JOURNAL NAME FOR GROGAN My New Live Journal Name Is TableForOne The link is www.livejournal.com/~tableforone (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 4th, 2002
7:54 am	THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO KICK ASS... well if i can find a car... a car would make things soooo much easier.... I'VE been looking for a car... but no luck.. if anyone know of a cheap car for sale... let me know... ok... im out.. Running out of reasons to try. Running out of things to say. Running out of smiles to fake. Running out of ways to lie. Running out of reasons. What the fuck am I going to do? This is my life. What the fuck am I going to do? Too busy to hit bottom. I don't have time to burn out. I live to toe the line so bring it on. I'm not interested in conciliation. I don't have time for sympathy, And I hate surprises. If this is it then let me know. If it's gonna get worse I can take it...try me. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 3rd, 2002
7:53 am	"Good luck finding those tampons" lol... last night was wicked fun... nora kicked ass.... WE MIGHT FINALLY HAVE A HEADLINING BAND!!!! WOO HOO!!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 1st, 2002
2:45 pm	I realized... i have very little friends.... today was boring so far.. i had to go to my cousins graduation from HCC... so anyways... im working 5- 1130... people should visit me... it will be fun... the nice manager is working tonight.... after work i dont want to stay home... ::sigh:: (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 31st, 2002
7:42 am	guys.. i get out of work at around 11 tommorrow... does anyone wnat to do anything with me???? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 27th, 2002
1:00 pm	dont worry about it... anyone who doesnt know what that last post was about.. dont worry about it... i wrote it when i was mad... ok... so everyone chill out... lol... people should visit me today... "a surprise visit"... lol... hope to see you all (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 26th, 2002
12:48 pm	THREE WORDS... AND THREE WORDS ONLY THATS FUCKED UP (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
6:17 pm	Dont ruin it!! Guys i realized something today... these are going to be the best years of our lives... i realized this when i was thinking about the april vacation... i loved it... i hung out with what i call my best friends... i dont know how you all see me (best friend, friend etc...).. but it was the funnest time ever... and we cant get emo and caught up in the moment and wishing we did something different... because no matter what.. we cant change the past.. so enjoy these days... because think about it... soe of our friends are graduating... and some of them are moving and going to collage... i dont know... ill shut up know... later (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 20th, 2002
5:22 pm	I can feel it happening all over again..... i feel the tension... i feel the stress.... building up.. ready for the one day... when i cant take this pain anymore... when i cant take just sitting here... then i will scream with so much silence..... even then no one will hear me.... This is where I say I've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better. Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and I'm thinking awful things and I'm pretty sure that few would notice. And this apartment is starving for an argument. Anything at all to break the silence. Wandering the house like I've never wanted out and this is about as social as I get now. And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you 'cause they would never do, I would never do. So don't be a liar, don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken. And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the joke's on me. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 19th, 2002
1:27 pm	heres to you... i dont know exactly what to say to make you feel better.. but i can say... that you should stop beating yourself up over this... livng in the past is the worst thing that you can do.. if you do that... then all the time you will have that "what if..?" in your head... and that will pull you down... it happened to me... and i dont want to see it happen to you... so, please stop beating yourslf up over this... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:31 am	"cream chesse isnt cheese!!!!!!" lol yestarday was fun!!! it strted off with me and joe hanging out at my house... then we went to high meadows.... where w lost our egg tossng champoinship, got wet, watched som girl get hit in the face wit a watermelon, and play mini golf.... GOT HOME!! after i got hme my mom brought joe home and i ened up going to frollics.... that was fun.... after that we ened up back at my house... and danielle and mandy somehow ended up in my clothes...lol... me jeff danielle mandy ad tony hung out till 12... jeff left at 100 though.... then after everyone left ... i watched the last saturday night live with will ferrel.. it was kinda funny.... not im relaxing before work.... later kids.... (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 18th, 2002
12:24 am	FUNNIEST THING EVER!!!!!! Well... me and joe were online and decided to fuck with some kids in a chat room.... s i said iwas a 17/f/ca/with a hot pic.. so then a 19 yr old male ims me.... i sent him a pic... of 3 gay guys fucking..... heres the chat : Keith G185: hey, what's up? XJonKoRnDaVisX: hey there big boy XJonKoRnDaVisX: want my hot pic? Keith G185: sure Keith G185: I'd love to see it XJonKoRnDaVisX: gimme a minute... u want a naked one?` Keith G185: sure XJonKoRnDaVisX: ok.. brb Keith G185: thanx baby XJonKoRnDaVisX: ill take a new one Keith G185: aight Keith G185: I'm a 19/m, by the way XJonKoRnDaVisX: how come your going for such young girls? XJonKoRnDaVisX: did i mention i have no HAIR!!! Keith G185: how old are you? XJonKoRnDaVisX: i said i was 15 Keith G185: oh, then you're a bit too young for me Keith G185: and you never said that XJonKoRnDaVisX: im kidding XJonKoRnDaVisX: im 17 XJonKoRnDaVisX: i promise im 17 XJonKoRnDaVisX: feb 16 1985 Keith G185: then hook me up with a pic XJonKoRnDaVisX: hold on.. im taking off my thong now Keith G185: aight Keith G185: u still there? XJonKoRnDaVisX: yup XJonKoRnDaVisX: just finishing up Keith G185: aight XJonKoRnDaVisX: tell me what u think XJonKoRnDaVisX: u like? XJonKoRnDaVisX: ??? Keith G185: u said u were a chick, sick faggot! XJonKoRnDaVisX: i am a chick Keith G185: then why's your pic of three fags? XJonKoRnDaVisX: cause im not a chick.. and i wanted to fuck with you... trust me im not gay... cause i fucked the shit out of you mom last night XJonKoRnDaVisX: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA XJonKoRnDaVisX: sucker.. i bet u went limp in 3 seconds XJonKoRnDaVisX: LOLOL XJonKoRnDaVisX: u there big boy? XJonKoRnDaVisX: well... time to fuck your mom... bye (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 17th, 2002
2:59 pm	NEW PIC!!!! WOO HOO Who is this incredably sexy man?!?!?! ..oh wait.. its me!!! lol well.. let sum up the day... School: boring ride home: danielle crunched my balls with her seat home:relax before work dont know whats going on tonight and with joe... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 16th, 2002
4:42 pm	Trapped inside the cage of my soul To whom it may concern, im lost. can you please help me. its wierd not knowing what will happen, quite eriee acctually. i wish i could just smile again. i'd love to just not have to force a smile, or cringe when someone goes to shake my hand. iamtheone please call me... the new thursday video was on today... MTV 2 had sound problems though... it was a weird video... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 15th, 2002
4:11 pm	"I know your scared, becuase i am too..." well.. today was one of those depressing days... i had to go to my great grandmothers funeral. not fun.. when i walked in i saw her and a tear ran down my face... i couldnt believe that she was gone... i will miss her... so, i had the whole funeral and shit, and now im at my grandmothers house keeping her company... if anyone wants to stop by tonight to say hi or whatev.. please do so... i almost had an anxiety attack in the church... just thinking about death... and how there might not anyhting after that... just eternal blackness.... FOREVER .... i still cant shake that thought... Current Music: Glassjaw - pretty lush (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 14th, 2002
3:34 pm	My life is being second guessed..... i dont know what to say... or.. i might as well not say anything at all... three words.... EGG TOSSING CHAMPS!!!!!! lies will always defeat the truth... if three words could heal you I'd only speak two... can you tell whats real anymore? cause i sure as hell cant... emptiness is where i am... darkness is what i see... closed in is how i feel... nothing is what i hear... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 13th, 2002
2:57 pm	DEDICATED TO YOU thanks danielle for being there fr me last nght wheni needed to talk... it may not have semed like it helped.. but jut taking my mind off of it for 15 min was good.. thank you.. DANCING IN THE RAIN WILL BE FUN!!! I thank you so much for bing such a great friend... not just now.. but in the past.. and definatly in the future.... well g2g... bye bye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 12th, 2002
2:56 pm	"you can call them, just tell them i didnt do anything wrong" well last night was interresting... lets annoy the driver ...lol .. "mock" .. "ya..." ing" ... "ya"... "bird" ..."ya" .. ::driver turns up radio: i sure showed those kids whose boss.... ::slaps ass:: lol i like te whole raining thing... but i dont like the fact that m great-grandmothers life is going to end soon... but i guess its best.. she has been suffering for a while now.... 04-26-02 22:15pm well kids ... if anyone wants to call me that would be wicked cool... well... adios.. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 6th, 2002
4:08 pm	::thinks:: hmmm.. who put ta picture on my live journal... i guess ill never find out time to indulge... ive been thinking a lot lately ... i dont like it... but i guess i need it. im a little lonely and lost right now... but im trying to make the best of it, trying to do what i can to make myself better... i hate this .. this feeling... why do i feel like this. i didnt even do anything to be like this.... AHHHHHHHHHH ..... HpElLePaMsEe <~~~~~(sorry for stealing ur thing danielle) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 3rd, 2002
9:45 pm	I just got home from work. Im about to go to the movies with Lovely Danielle and Scrumptious Mandy. And plain Joel. It should be loads of fun. I love those girls. And Joel too, I guess. ....and..... I have a bellybutton. That is all. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: oops, oh my! by tweet (4 Comments |Comment on this)