Grogan

NEW LIVE JOURNAL NAME FOR GROGAN

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Fri, 07 Jun 2002 12:55:24 GMT

My New Live Journal Name Is TableForOne

The link is www.livejournal.com/~tableforone

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Tue, 04 Jun 2002 13:12:44 GMT

THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO KICK ASS... well if i can find a car... a car would make things soooo much easier.... I'VE been looking for a car... but no luck.. if anyone know of a cheap car for sale... let me know... ok... im out..

Running out of reasons to try.
Running out of things to say.
Running out of smiles to fake.
Running out of ways to lie.

Running out of reasons.
What the fuck am I going to do?
This is my life.
What the fuck am I going to do?

Too busy to hit bottom.
I don't have time to burn out.
I live to toe the line so bring it on.
I'm not interested in conciliation.
I don't have time for sympathy,
And I hate surprises.
If this is it then let me know.
If it's gonna get worse I can take it...try me.

"Good luck finding those tampons"

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 03 Jun 2002 13:05:27 GMT

lol... last night was wicked fun... nora kicked ass.... WE MIGHT FINALLY HAVE A HEADLINING BAND!!!! WOO HOO!!!!

I realized... i have very little friends....

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sat, 01 Jun 2002 18:47:10 GMT

today was boring so far.. i had to go to my cousins graduation from HCC... so anyways...

im working 5- 1130... people should visit me... it will be fun... the nice manager is working tonight....

after work i dont want to stay home...

::sigh::

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Fri, 31 May 2002 12:55:40 GMT

guys.. i get out of work at around 11 tommorrow... does anyone wnat to do anything with me????

dont worry about it...

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 27 May 2002 16:59:05 GMT

anyone who doesnt know what that last post was about.. dont worry about it... i wrote it when i was mad... ok... so everyone chill out... lol...

people should visit me today... "a surprise visit"... lol... hope to see you all

THREE WORDS... AND THREE WORDS ONLY

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sun, 26 May 2002 16:50:26 GMT

THATS FUCKED UP

Dont ruin it!!

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Wed, 22 May 2002 22:23:56 GMT

Guys i realized something today... these are going to be the best years of our lives... i realized this when i was thinking about the april vacation... i loved it... i hung out with what i call my best friends... i dont know how you all see me (best friend, friend etc...).. but it was the funnest time ever... and we cant get emo and caught up in the moment and wishing we did something different... because no matter what.. we cant change the past.. so enjoy these days... because think about it... soe of our friends are graduating... and some of them are moving and going to collage... i dont know... ill shut up know... later

I can feel it happening all over again.....

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 20 May 2002 21:27:36 GMT

i feel the tension... i feel the stress.... building up.. ready for the one day... when i cant take this pain anymore... when i cant take just sitting here... then i will scream with so much silence..... even then no one will hear me....

This is where I say I've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better.
Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and I'm thinking awful things and I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence.
Wandering the house like I've never wanted out and this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you 'cause they would never do, I would never do.
So don't be a liar, don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken.
And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the joke's on me.

heres to you...

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sun, 19 May 2002 17:29:53 GMT

i dont know exactly what to say to make you feel better.. but i can say... that you should stop beating yourself up over this... livng in the past is the worst thing that you can do.. if you do that... then all the time you will have that "what if..?" in your head... and that will pull you down... it happened to me... and i dont want to see it happen to you... so, please stop beating yourslf up over this...

"cream chesse isnt cheese!!!!!!" lol

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sun, 19 May 2002 15:36:30 GMT

yestarday was fun!!!

it strted off with me and joe hanging out at my house... then we went to high meadows.... where w lost our egg tossng champoinship, got wet, watched som girl get hit in the face wit a watermelon, and play mini golf....

GOT HOME!!

after i got hme my mom brought joe home and i ened up going to frollics.... that was fun.... after that we ened up back at my house... and danielle and mandy somehow ended up in my clothes...lol... me jeff danielle mandy ad tony hung out till 12... jeff left at 100 though.... then after everyone left ... i watched the last saturday night live with will ferrel.. it was kinda funny.... not im relaxing before work.... later kids....

FUNNIEST THING EVER!!!!!!

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sat, 18 May 2002 04:24:57 GMT

Well... me and joe were online and decided to fuck with some kids in a chat room.... s i said iwas a 17/f/ca/with a hot pic.. so then a 19 yr old male ims me.... i sent him a pic... of 3 gay guys fucking..... heres the chat :

Keith G185: hey, what's up?

XJonKoRnDaVisX: hey there big boy
XJonKoRnDaVisX: want my hot pic?
Keith G185: sure

Keith G185: I'd love to see it
XJonKoRnDaVisX: gimme a minute... u want a naked one?`
Keith G185: sure
XJonKoRnDaVisX: ok.. brb
Keith G185: thanx baby
XJonKoRnDaVisX: ill take a new one
Keith G185: aight
Keith G185: I'm a 19/m, by the way
XJonKoRnDaVisX: how come your going for such young girls?
XJonKoRnDaVisX: did i mention i have no HAIR!!!
Keith G185: how old are you?
XJonKoRnDaVisX: i said i was 15
Keith G185: oh, then you're a bit too young for me
Keith G185: and you never said that
XJonKoRnDaVisX: im kidding
XJonKoRnDaVisX: im 17
XJonKoRnDaVisX: i promise im 17
XJonKoRnDaVisX: feb 16 1985
Keith G185: then hook me up with a pic
XJonKoRnDaVisX: hold on.. im taking off my thong now
Keith G185: aight
Keith G185: u still there?
XJonKoRnDaVisX: yup
XJonKoRnDaVisX: just finishing up
Keith G185: aight
XJonKoRnDaVisX: tell me what u think
XJonKoRnDaVisX: u like?
XJonKoRnDaVisX: ???
Keith G185: u said u were a chick, sick faggot!
XJonKoRnDaVisX: i am a chick
Keith G185: then why's your pic of three fags?
XJonKoRnDaVisX: cause im not a chick.. and i wanted to fuck with you... trust me im not gay... cause i fucked the shit out of you mom last night
XJonKoRnDaVisX: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
XJonKoRnDaVisX: sucker.. i bet u went limp in 3 seconds
XJonKoRnDaVisX: LOLOL

XJonKoRnDaVisX: u there big boy?
XJonKoRnDaVisX: well... time to fuck your mom... bye

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Fri, 17 May 2002 19:04:08 GMT

NEW PIC!!!! WOO HOO Who is this incredably sexy man?!?!?! ..oh wait.. its me!!! lol

well.. let sum up the day...

School: boring
ride home: danielle crunched my balls with her seat
home:relax before work

dont know whats going on tonight and with joe...

Trapped inside the cage of my soul

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Thu, 16 May 2002 20:53:03 GMT

To whom it may concern,
im lost. can you please help me. its wierd not knowing what will happen, quite eriee acctually. i wish i could just smile again. i'd love to just not have to force a smile, or cringe when someone goes to shake my hand.

iamtheone

please call me...

the new thursday video was on today... MTV 2 had sound problems though... it was a weird video...

"I know your scared, becuase i am too..."

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Wed, 15 May 2002 20:17:47 GMT

well.. today was one of those depressing days... i had to go to my great grandmothers funeral. not fun.. when i walked in i saw her and a tear ran down my face... i couldnt believe that she was gone... i will miss her... so, i had the whole funeral and shit, and now im at my grandmothers house keeping her company... if anyone wants to stop by tonight to say hi or whatev.. please do so...

i almost had an anxiety attack in the church... just thinking about death... and how there might not anyhting after that... just eternal blackness.... FOREVER .... i still cant shake that thought...

My life is being second guessed.....

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Tue, 14 May 2002 19:49:51 GMT

i dont know what to say... or.. i might as well not say anything at all...

three words.... EGG TOSSING CHAMPS!!!!!!

lies will always defeat the truth...

if three words could heal you I'd only speak two...

can you tell whats real anymore? cause i sure as hell cant...

emptiness is where i am... darkness is what i see... closed in is how i feel... nothing is what i hear...

DEDICATED TO YOU

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 13 May 2002 19:02:59 GMT

thanks danielle for being there fr me last nght wheni needed to talk... it may not have semed like it helped.. but jut taking my mind off of it for 15 min was good.. thank you..

DANCING IN THE RAIN WILL BE FUN!!!

I thank you so much for bing such a great friend... not just now.. but in the past.. and definatly in the future.... well g2g... bye bye

"you can call them, just tell them i didnt do anything wrong"

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sun, 12 May 2002 19:04:31 GMT

well last night was interresting...

lets annoy the driver ...lol .. "mock" .. "ya..." ing" ... "ya"... "bird" ..."ya" .. ::driver turns up radio:

i sure showed those kids whose boss.... ::slaps ass:: lol

i like te whole raining thing... but i dont like the fact that m great-grandmothers life is going to end soon... but i guess its best.. she has been suffering for a while now....

04-26-02 22:15pm

well kids ... if anyone wants to call me that would be wicked cool... well... adios..

::thinks::

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 06 May 2002 20:09:08 GMT

hmmm.. who put ta picture on my live journal... i guess ill never find out

time to indulge...

ive been thinking a lot lately ... i dont like it... but i guess i need it.

im a little lonely and lost right now... but im trying to make the best of it, trying to do what i can to make myself better...

i hate this .. this feeling... why do i feel like this. i didnt even do anything to be like this.... AHHHHHHHHHH .....

HpElLePaMsEe <~~~~~(sorry for stealing ur thing danielle)

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sat, 04 May 2002 01:43:33 GMT

I just got home from work. Im about to go to the movies with Lovely Danielle and Scrumptious Mandy. And plain Joel. It should be loads of fun. I love those girls. And Joel too, I guess.

....and..... I have a bellybutton.

That is all.

Mandy is so good.

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 29 Apr 2002 22:02:59 GMT

I LOVE MANDY!!!!

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Mon, 29 Apr 2002 19:27:17 GMT

yes.. i had been drinking that day.... i drank about 4 mikes and i smoked a bowl.... that shit was good... NO I WASNT ON ANY DRUGS OR ALCOHOL... I WAS STRAIGHT AS A BOARD.... THE CAR IN FRONT OF ME STOPPED AND I DIDNT ..... SO I GUESS IT WASNT HIS FAULT....

understanding.... in a car crash....

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Sun, 28 Apr 2002 20:55:37 GMT

well.... first car accident ever.... not fun... too much guilt on my shoulders... too much ... i know you all say its an accident.... an accident i caused.... words cant express how sorry i am... i just hope theres no hard feelings from ANYONE.... well... when i was on the way to the hospital i relized how quick things can change... one minute we are having fun... going to dennys.... the next im in a neck brace on the way to the hospital... im just glad everyone is ok.... im sorry.... everyone

FIANALLY

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Thu, 25 Apr 2002 23:33:47 GMT

I HAVE A NEW SN!!! IT IS... Table For 0ne ... the o in one is a zero... thats all i know.... add it to ur buddy list cause the korn ones are gone

Now pull up my scrotum, and take the shampoo bottle out of my ass.

coalchamberrulez@aol.com — Thu, 25 Apr 2002 21:47:53 GMT

I have a bellybutton.
:::Plays with window:::

I am truly sorry, I didn't mean to, I can't lose you, not like this. Well, you'll know soon enough.